I want to...

I want to hold you close
under the rain

I want to kiss your smile
and feel the pain

I know what is beautiful
looking at you

In the world of lies
you are the truth

I want to call the stars
down from the sky

I want to live a day
that never dies

I want to change the world
only for you

All the impossible I want to do...

Anonymous

Abnormal children !!!

" Do you have a nice boyfriend ? "
" NO "
" Why????"
" I just didn't find someone nice for me !!! "
" liking someone...
Falling in love...
being in love ...
falling out of love ...
sorrow...
pain...
solitude...
This is your age ..when are you going to do this ??
and How come you just don't love someone!!!
Something is ABNORMAL with children today!!! "

Playing my part!!

I came here with zero expectations
when I saw the place felt more depressed !!!
sometimes life doesn't offer you any choice
so you have to do it
I thought its risky
but what isn't risky in life
we want to play it safe always
things which you get easily
you don't feel excited about it!!

so I started visiting the place
and I started liking it
reason is I convinced myself for few things
other than this practical learning of work
I am learning many things

getting a chance to be surrounded by
versatile, legitimate and wacky people

few who only live for themselves
and express that through whatever they do

few only work for 24X7
beacuse they enjoy working like that

few who work , play, dance
thats how they want their life to be

someone wants to be experimental
so they are away from their own country
and want to be a part of this crowd

few wants to be back to their country
and counting everyday for that

they find me very lucky
because I can roam around here
eat whatever I want here
meet people whom we love
work for people whom we wish to work..

for a change , I am not thinking
I know I am enjoying everyday
because its making an addition to my life..

through book readings in bus travel,
making conversations with co travellers ,
walking down an unknown street in RIZZLING winter ,
learning different cooking ,
watching collection of movies ,
writing ,
playing basketball sometimes ,
shopping vegtable and fruits ,
looking outside french windows ,
going through all the details lying in bed ,
figuring out intersting patterns ...
on ceiling formed by street lights ,
howling sound of wind ,
travelling various places ,
attending weddings ,
writing mails and letters ,
buying gifts whenever I feel like ,
no botheration of next day,
no worries,
I know at the end , Everything will fall in place ,
I am playing my part very well :)

what is = what happens

"To me doing design doesn't mean giving form to a more or less stupid product for a more or less sophisticated industry. Design  for me is a way of discussing life, sociality, politics, 
food and even design."
where WHAT IS = WHAT HAPPENS
It is a faith of permanent creative restlessness.

Sottsass

nice one!!!

" when I am working on a problem, I never think about the beauty.
I think only how to solve the  problem but when I have finished 
if the solution isn't beautiful 
I know it is wrong "
Richard Buckminster fuller

single step

A journey of thousand miles begin with a single step... Lao tze , chinese philisopher

Esacpe

"  I don't like the thing that's happening to people "
" What ?"
" I don't know, but I have watched them for twenty years and I have seen the change . They used to rush through here and it was wonderful to watch , It was 
hurry of men who knew where they are going and were eager to get there.Now 
they are hurrying because they are afraid. Its not a purpose which drives them.
Its a fear. they are not going  anywhere, they are escaping, and I don't think they
know what is it that they want to escape. They don't look at one another. 
They jerk when brushed against. They smile too much but its an ugly kind of smiling.
It's not joy, its pleading. I don't know  what it is that's happening to the world"

Atlas shrugged , Ayan Rand

Chennapattana

  

I have been to this place rescently for another craft visit. this villege is 60kms away from bangalore and famous for lacqured toys!!! very cute ones...
in this villege colour scheme of all houses is jus the same even temples ..I dont know the reason behind it. but it looks really nice .

  
 Temples                                                                 

      
Idols made out of entire coconut !!           

    
 Bidi making is another household businees 
  
This is how people travel in Chennapattana.
I was shocked when i got know that we are also
travelling by these buses. But these are THE specific
buses which goes to another remote villages from chennapattana
 that is why ther soooo crowded !!!!


 Happy to be clicked ...

  
Smart use of tree !!! The  person who is  repairing cycle has
hung the cycle to the hook which is fixed to the brach of tree.
so that he doenst have to hold the cycle. :D cool one !!


 Lacquered wooden toys !!!

Designer shoes

 

I came across these nice pair of shoes designed by designer edwin Pinto , Goa while roaming in Bangalore at Grasshopper , designer boutique with a nice restaurent. This place is situated on Bannerghatta road in a farm house. Nice, cozy, romantic place to relax, eat and shop which is away from city. 

  
open restaurant

  

castles in the air

I want to write something but dont know what to write :) whole day of working without fruitful work is tiring !!! but I am enjoying this phase too..
long back when I was in school on my birthday one very dear friend of mine gave a birthday card with a message....
" If you have built castles in the air , No problem..everyone does .. now put fondation underneath.."
I think the time has come now .. :D

fantastic collection

During my project work I met one lady who has fantastic
collection of varoius traditional things and products she
collected while travelling across the world. She has collcetion 
of antiques, hand fans, tops, lamps, bells, toys, paper aeroplanes,
masks, fossils which she collceted while trekk. 
very impressive lady with varied interests !!! 

    
Tea strainer from North East                        Various hand fans
  
   
            Knitted comb                                   Whistle as a pendent

   
      Japanese cherry top                               Fossils of sea creatures 




      
  Carry your own lamp                         leather puppets 

 
This is the coolest one !!                                             
To pick up bati from lamp which we light in front of god.

      
                          Variuos masks    

         
Aeroplanes out of paper by her son          Sticks which we use to tie bun

Bidar

     
whole view of Bidar fort where thetown is situated. Bidar is 
famous for Bidriware craft and many historical monuments..
It is in Karnataka state and on the border of Andhra pradesh and Maharashtra. It was my one day trip to Bidar from bangalore 
which took 16 hours by road. I have seen two kannad and one
tamil movies in the bus journey.
 
     

                                         
          Gurudwara                                 Inside bidar fort

           
 
        

  Bidri craft with zinc + copper metal and silver inlay.   This is 500 year old craft used to make sword covers , containers, 
   spitoons, pandan, trays, basins etc for royal families. Bidriware is
   has large influence of mughal architecture.

cigarettes !!!

"I like cigarettes...
I like to think about fire in man's hand. Fire, a dangerous force, tamed at his finger tips. I often wonder about the hours when a man sits alone watching the smoke of cigarette. THINKING.I wonder what great things have come from such hours. When a man thinks, there is a spot of fire alive in his mind - and it is proper that he should have the burning point of a cigarette as his one expression."

Atlas shrugged, Ayn Rand

HAPPY :D

I am feeling very light.... and HAPPY happy HAPPY happy HAPPY :D
Luckily, I am surrouded by such good people who make you feel very special and extraordinary. After tallking to them you feel..there are no PROBLEMS though problems actually exists and needs lot of courage to fight. you get strength and positive enrgy to do your work properly by beliving in yourself, making your own decisions and considering every opportunity is the stepping stone for next one. you will find connection in everything happended to you. everything feels happy and cheerful.

who is more confused??

few days before in the night me and navdeep had a serious discussion about WHO IS MORE CONFUSED AMNGST US....me or navdeep and the ANSWER IS.......................WE DON'T KNOW!!!

Life

I happened to read this...
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take; but by the moments that take our breath away."

At this moment

I am sure , I am growing old now. This place made me very emotional and extra sensitive.I don't know whether it is good or bad but someone or the other is getting affected because of that change.

Arpit is a regular sufferer.

Small change like not able to concentrate on work ...irritates me like anything. Why we all feel so insecure about our future. I find it funny that in life all things are dependent on each other. if one goes wrong in the chain...it affects everything... then we try to console ourselves by saying " Its destiny"...How untrue is that putting all blame on DESTINY...

I hate people who take you for granted and i hate myself more that I can't say NO to them.Its been years happening the same, no change at all " In this nature of mine".

I still dont know what I am going to do in my diploma project

or when I am going to complete my two pending major projects

when will I FEEL homesick...

when will I gain my lost confidence again..

How to convince myself for the the statement like" Belive in yourself "

How to avoid people ( wanted and unwanted too..) without hurting them...

forget about helping society....How to help myself so that things will fall in place for me.

It is so difficult to take decisions in your life and be responsible for them,easy way out is to follow somebody else's word..In this case you can blame SOMEONE else along with destiny ...like I find love marriage is difficult for me than arranged marriage ...whatever your parents say ....just say "YES" to it and thats all !!!

Whats more important ??? to do what your heart says to do or to do what situation wants from you...keeping aside your demands from life.

Please teach me how to give FULL STOP to things.

I dont want to be generous anymore...tired of selfishness

I want to give two slaps to those who crib at every stage of life and want to show them other side of the world where life is not LIFE.

I never missed a single chance to get wet in the rain but for the first time in this monsoon I didn't even think about it. I don't want to miss these small pleasures of life which makes life exciting, otherwise everyday is the same and everything becomes a routine after a point.

I want to know how to be PASSIONATE in life about work.

At this moment I have only questions and no answers..

In the mood for love

"Past is something which you can see and can't touch..."

from the movie In the mood for love which I saw in audi yesterday. Beautifully made simple love story( actually its about an extra -marital affair) by director Wong kar-wai. Amazing shots. Camera work is GOOD through out the movie, where every simple gesture, every scene is worth seeing. I loved costumes and whole look of the actress Maggie Cheung. In short, dont't miss chance to see this movie.

Bike rides

I enjoy sitting behind on bike in fulllllllllll speed with closed eyes. let rider keep performing his duty and you enjoy speeeeeeeed with closed eyes. I feel light like feather and scared inside ...at the same time because you can't see anything. but its a lot of fun. yesterday Mr. G ( guy who has cutest dimples in the campus) took me on a bike ride to a bridge. I dont know the name of the bridge,but the view from that bridge is really good. I went there for the first time. Nice place !!! Thanks to Mr. G....I really wanted to go on a bike ride :)

I have special memories of bike rides in NID, though I haven't visited much of the places...but one place I miss a lot is the ride to Indira bridge. I think that whole journey was amazing with THE GANG.I missing those rides yaar !!!

Crazy things

THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO NOW ....

My brand new laptop

Just wanted to share this news ....THAT MY LAPTOP FELL FROM SHELF AND IT GOT CRACKED!!!!! :(
what worst can happen at this point of time..I just brought it a month before...

Its raining here ..finally :)

I loveeee watching rains, sitting near window and doing nothing...simply watching outside :)
I feel deeply connected with the rain. whole atmosphere changes and it feels like ...he is showing his feelings with lightening, rain drops, thundering, green leaves, clean roads, paper boats... everything around is so fresh like a new born baby..Rain fills liveness in a person and in any object. whole point of view changes when its associated with rain.

view on colour

" CLOSE YOUR EYES AND DREAM IN MONOCOLOUR" ....loved the line from book called view on colour in kmc. I was thinking actually how will dreams appear to us :)

sleepless

sleepless nights
endless thoughts

I always think
where things went wrong!!!

keep wondering
will ever things go right...

want to write more
words aren't sufficient....

want to find more ways
to express myself...

I can't see anything
everything is blurred

only moist eyes
with warm tears...

be with yourself

wherever you go,
wherever you stay,
There is always a place for ' You'
you will find it out some or the other way,
where you feel You are still Living
not just Existing..

There will be
chaos all around,
lot of conversations,
many people,
daylight,
ringing phone,
chirping birds,
honking horns of vehicles,
known unknown faces...
but you will still feel comfortable
by just sitting in your corner & be with yourself

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't get sentimental about your project, you will not be able to do justice to it.stay out of it and try to look at it from a different person's point of view!! you might get the answers for all your questions...

Miracle

Waiting for something is crucial..
what to do to kill "THE" time
its just not passing
whenever I have time,
whenever I pass through that street,
whenever I look at those papers,
thoughts pop up in mind
which are unable to control
they continue popping...
It hurts me a lot
because of my helplessness
I can't do anything
other than just looking at them.
In the corner of my mind,
I can only think of “Miracle"
And I am waiting for that NOW

small things count!!

Yesterday I did something, which I did it after a long time. Its a nice feeling to do something for people whom you love. I was very HaApPy :D ...Small things makes life worth while, smaller incidents have big impact on your mind...like it could be someone saying a line to u, holding your hand, doing something for you, helping you or a simple kiss on your cheek…means a lot!!

don't want to work...

I just want to do something else than WORK…its just not happening man!!! I wasted one whole month after my jury…what to do…I am doing everything from eating nice food to watching movies but still that feeling of completing work is not coming from within. I want to go somewhere else but not back to home...I am just avoiding to go there..I want change in place..maybe I should go to Himalaya’s now… :D

way back into love...

I saw “Music and lyrics" starring Hugh grant, Drew Barrymore and I loved the song which they sing together. This beautiful song is sung by Hugh grant and Haley Bennett. In a true sense... good music and lyrics.

I liked few dialogues too...
“Melody is like seeing someone for the first time, physical attraction...
then as you get to know the person that’s lyrics.
The story who they are underneath.
Its the combination of two that makes the magic.."

Way Back Into Love...

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

don't want to be the last one :(

I didn't do anything after my 4th sem jury(23rd april) till date.Lot of work is pending.I am only thinking...giving "goodbye's" to everyone around,who finished their work and left back to their homes. I am still waiting here..doing nothing...only tried to finish one of the documents because of a deadline. now it seems there is no deadline set for myself..previously it was by course and jury structure. It seems everything is calm down, no hurry to go anywhere or make portfolio or to apply to any companies. I am not in a mood to do anything.Every moment I am forcing myself to work because I do not want to be the last one staying here to finish work without my classmates. Its so much fun to be with them and woking in our own studio, consulting each other with support and doing "masti" with 'jaaneman','bhopla' at any hour of day or night. simply chatting with each other, watching romantic films, sharing things, creating the whole 'story' behind our every major project...that "whole experience" is amazing, which I am doubtful whether I will ever get to.... :)
I am still not serious about this thing called " pending work". One of my classmate is already left for home. we 10 are here, that number will soon decrease and boiled down to zero and nobody wants to be the last one.

swinging tree

I want to go high and high in the sky
want to sit on a swing tied on banyan tree
and see the sky, birds...

My grandfather used to do this for me when I was a kid.He made a place with branches for me to sit and eat on a mango tree in our farm.I miss those days...
Roaming in fields,
Swimming in well,
Living in a hut with cows, buffalows,hens,dogs,goats...
Eating hot food which my mother used to carry in a weaved basket on her head... our entire family used to eat together...
Sleeping under moonlit skies in fields,
Collecting all possible things from stone,feathers,dry flowers,wild berries to home along with 5-10 liters of milk cans...
sometimes going back to home in village by bullock cart or
on the back of buffalow...
having roasted peanuts and 'papad' as evening snack and a glass of fresh milk...
singing 'bhajans' and playing 'lezim' in the evening with old men
listening to stories of crops, fields, gods and their routine farmer's life...
being curious about 'mela' which happens once in a year
and looking forward for summer vacations to go back to my village..

designers...

Saying "You can"
not " you must"
the difference
between a
contemporary,
approach which,
values the,
Individual
to
conservative or
ideological
approach which
denies the Individual... Philippe starck

"Designers should read about everything except design."

I found...

This is something which I wrote during internship in Delhi...

In 25 years of my life...I found many things, many people....
who affected my life and made me the way I am...

and gave realization to my dreams,
held my hand when I was unable to stand,
taught me to speak, what my heart says
made me bold enough to face circumstances

and they taught me to laugh,
how to express myself without words,
how to bring smile on others face...
they took me to the places I wanted to be

They showed me how to keep faith
when you are shattered
how to believe in yourself,
not to take people for granted,
being little extra careful while talking to people,
so that you don't hurt them

and how to grasp lessons from nature
how to keep eyes wide open to understand,
without speaking a word
to convey your feelings from heart
to believe in dreams and work towards them
and to be a good human being
and many things....

we learn so much from small incidents which we generally forget...
But time always make an effort to teach us that every single thing!!

still there are many pages where nothing was written ....
Few tear drops...
and they taught me to read between the lines and empty pages..

My hostel room :((

I am totally hating it...I dont want to shift somewhere else from the hostel. I am missing my room already..senti ho gayi hoon...Why man why???? we have to vacate the hostel...white wash kya issi saal karana tha?? It took around 1-2 months to get adjusted my self in my single room( I really get scared of staying alone but josh me aake I chose to stay alone in 3rd sem & 4th sem..slowly I strated liking it) till that time I forced myself on N & R as their third roomie for god kows how many days.... later to A and gave company to people whose roomies were not their..(basicaly all excuses)...

Now I totally love my room...and sketches of celvin and hobbs in the room (whoever has done befor I shift to that room..good sketches), my pin up board, photos, quotes, date cards, poems...view from my balcony, huge neem tree in front of it, cool breeze which comes to my room only...sweet sound of wind chimes which I brought it from Law garden...

I stayed there for two years with my classmates , friends..n did many things..
late night talks, maggi, millenium coffee ( I hardly did that...but many times gave company to my friends..) sitting near middle gate, backfields, chatting under staircase of A- hostel..
sitting n reading books on A-hostel staircase( third floor) gazing at stars,
view of sabarmati in monsoon, mess, sitting on recliners near reck room,
celebrating birthdays near A- hostel,UFO, throwing water, late night chats from passage to across all the floors, giving food to friends, scaring people in the room by entering to their rooms from balcony, midnight singing n playing guitar, late night garba n urge to dance on those tunes till u r tired....

one thing I hate is I really get concious while dancing but I really made a lot of effort to learn garba with teacher like Arpit ...Garba in the backfields...those whole 9 days with preperation from buying garba clothes to finishing assignments as fast as possible, praying for 8-o clock so that insti gets shut and we get more time for dance ..diya dance...whole atmosphere with other people visiting , clicking lots of snaps, dancing with faculties...

going to gym with mandal n jogging in the backfields...

whole night singing n sharing sessions.... bun maska @ paldi char rasta at 4 in the morning, going to Adalaj from their only...coz it was ful moon night...

making crazy plans at 10 in the night that we will leave to Pawagadh by 12 n start patao people for that...n number of times Mocha plans and movie sessions...

washing pile of clothes late night in the laundry room, chatting in cyber cafe near hostel...
doing every possible crazy thing..
Its like a whole new world aloof from world outside...
I enjoyed it totally...n I want to live this again n again with the people around...

something good

"Grown ups never understnad anything for themselves and it it tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them."
Antoine de saint exupery ( The little prince)

Keep smilng :)

Few days back I was sitting in KMC and trying to work
looking at my face, someone told me " Smile while working"
Things will resolve automatically for you.
Your happiness will give way to ideas...

I was in a bad mood; but these words were enough to console me..
I felt like a small school going kid, who is confused, irritated and don't know what to do...
This incident reminded me another comment passed by one of my closest friend when we meet for the first time..
he said that when I am serious , it appears as if something is seriously wrong with me... so smile ..It costs nothing!!

" You cry and you cry alone...
you smile and whole world will smile with you.." V.P.Kale

Few people

Few people make the world better, just by being in it..
which is so true...
you feel so nice and comfortable with them...
sharing whatever your heart says without hesitations and insecurity.
you want to be with them,
in their ups and downs..
you become happy with them and suffer in their problems...
I always wonder ...
How come we get so involved with someone..
that their every small thing matters to you
their exams, aspirations, love life, family and what not
your world just revolves around them...

My mind

Whatever is in my mind is always differs,
when it becomes reality

I start with something else in my mind,
but ends with something else

You can't decide everything in life ...

Few things just happens when you are busy
in doing something else :)

For LAD 05

Design is modest and not too grandiose on scale...
not too logical in form.....
a reasonable compromise between beauty and utility,
neither overstressing
beauty till it degenerates into ornament,
nor over stressing utility till it becomes
bare and hard.
Robert Pick

I like...

I like the way you smile at me,
and in return I smile at you

I like the way you talk to others,
and I enjoy watching you engrossed in discussions

I like the way you do your work,
so involved that you are unaware of my presence

I like the way you make your presence felt
and my unsuccessful attempt of neglecting it!!

current state :(

My current state of mind ...
?....??..???.......????...??.. ??...???
many thoughts running in my mind
Actually one can make animation movie
out of it!!!

I am thinking about that ONE SPARK
which is needed to start my project

I am waiting for an apple to fall
on my head,
Last time it fell when NEWTON sat
under an apple tree
and he stated " Law of gravity" ....... :D

current state :( ( part II)

When "A" read my blog ..she wrote few lines,

which I have mentioned below..

HaHa :D I was planning to write something on MY current state of mind..

you stole my lines!

the rate at which I am going right now,

forget Newton I'm willing to do a Archimedes! ;)

Fact

Don't say YES when you want to say NO
&
Don't say NO when you want to say YES !!

let it go

Time is flying
I don't want to capture any moment
Let it go!

This time,
I don't want to carry anything with me
not a single memory
not a single person...

"Feelings"

sometimes you don't know
what is happening to you,
at one moment you feel elated
other moment feeling of loosing something
or suddenly you feel depressed and low..

forget about telling this to someone
I myself not able to understand
this thing called " feelings"

why they are so important in our lives
they decide our own moods
they have power of changing you entirely
mainly people are responsible for this
may be wanted or unwanted...
I feel sometimes,
even atmosphere is responsible for this
If weather is nice then at least
you have one reason less to complain
or your state of mind matters a lot..

why ...
when cloud comes together
wind starts blowing
when you hear thundering
see raindrops
make you feel nice
you get tempted to get wet in the rain...
do all crazy things
or just feel the rain
which seeps inside you
the more you get wet!!

why does this happen?
why are we so driven by our so called " feelings"
How will you explain .. the factor of "feeling" something
or its stupid to think about " feelings"
but still everyone follows ....feelings :)
what are the factors which decide ...how one should feel

I don't know whether it all makes sense
I am just writing whatever I am feeling right now!!!

I am so HaPpY :D

Sometimes you just don't know what to say...
Miracles do happen... in today's world
If you love someone truly...it will be all yours...
Few things in life just change you totally...inside out
Every thing feels complete ...like a full circle

Sometimes you just smile...
As some one said
“Some joys are better expressed in silence ...
as a smile holds more meaning than laughter"
I wanted to jump
I wanted to laugh
But I was on the verge of crying
Unable to handle so much of Happiness

Last 11 years came in front of my eyes
I was in flash back
We had our greatest time of life spend together..
shared Happiness...sorrows...dreams... ambitions...
Love life...picnics...food..drinks
Responsibilities... frustrations...weakness...n number of things!!!
Every possible thing on the earth

I just wanted him to be happy
Truly..not compromised due to circumstances
I am so so HaPpY!!!
These are the simple words...
through which I can express my happiness.
I want them to be happy always
I have seen him suffering
counting every second
deep in side his heart...
sometime your face doesn't reflect anything
but your eyes speak
A time comes in your life when you just pray
because you can't do anything else
I think...
And....suddenly things do change for you
Everything is destined to happen...
Its Serendipity :)

It reminds me few lines…
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. Helen Keller

Experiencing silence

9.10 in the morning
cool breeze
quiet sunny outside
I am sitting in my bed
looking outside
Neem tree
chirping birds
sound of leaves

First I was hoping to get a room in hostel
with view a of Sabarmati river from balcony
but I am happy with whatever I have got
from "Chit" system, while selecting hostel rooms

In the morning
I opened windows and all doors
allowed cool breeze to enter
I like the room which is filled with light

I am quietly sitting in my bed
Room appeared pleasant to me
Every time it looks different to me
though its not properly cleaned

A pile of clothes lying at one corner of bed
few papers are scattered on table
my books are not in placed
papers on my pin up board are reducing
few of them are flying with the air
I looked at the " photos" on board and smiled
different moods and times captured in those...

Back ground music of air tel ringtone for a while
later..
only sound of leaves and fan in my room
everything is in motion....
I am sitting still....
feeling happy from within
Experiencing silence.....
with cool breeze all over the place.

books

Today I was sitting in KMC ( its our college library) after a long time and happened to be sitting alone on other side of it.I saw those books which I haven't checked in last 2 years of NID..I remembered on the first day,they told about KMC i.e. Knowledge Management Centre has around 80,000 books..I was so shocked that time...I thought ,I will not be able to read all books in two years even if i want to...then as per our courses started I became familier with KMC...and that became THE place to study, chat, timepass, meet people n for that matter to "see" people..which we generally didn't get to see in the institute.. ;)

Today in the last sem I am feeling that how many books I have read in two years...not even more than 1500...atleast for reference, projects, some just to read, just to see and few just to make an excuse to sit inside library .....

I wanted to write so called " brief" of my major project and it was very hot outside( Thanx to ahmedabad), so I entered to this place, sat in another corner where I generally never sit...Happened to see books from management section...advertising...biology....software programmes..
and I was going through my written papers, trying to write my brief.... I picked up a book called ..
" creative"...I read it for sometime, then I picked up another book...
" perfect mangers".....
"celebrity sells"...how celebrities are imporatant in media and people influenced by them and their acts ....
" straight talks"...
The ability to interact with people using direct, honest communication is something to which we all aspire, but saying exacltly what you want to say is not always easy. In fact, in the situations in which straight talk is the most needed,it is most elusive.

" Layout"...I thought this will be helpful for me to make my portfolio ...because my presentations skills are not that great...so I just started reading...

first paragraph says..
How does creative ideas evolve into an end result? What does the process look like?
The truth is : Design is personal, each designer or artist approaches a job or a project differently. A designer brings his personality, experience, education, imaginaton, preference to each piece - Rodney J. Moore

I wanted to read more and I received a call, so I kept that book aside...which I will definately read it...Now I feel I should spend more time in KMC and read books..

Aisa kyon hota hai, jab sab khatm hone aata hai..to saari cheezonki ahemiyat pata chalne lagati hai.. :D

eyes...

Eyes speaks louder than words
I started knowing this recently…

why??

Why there is a difference between two people
one is rich, can afford variety of food
other is struggling hard to earn money for food
one has to leave school and home for that

why there is a gap between thoughts
one that is rich ..
is always considered to be cultured and well mannered
though most of the times they aren't
one who is from lower class
has to be considered doubtful
just because they don't have money
that doesn't make them culprit

I have seen people who have everything
but still get pleasure out of stealing things...
it's a weird mentality

why this is happening
you have evrything ..whatever you want ...at your feet
but still unhappy
on the other hand,
people who doesn't have anything to loose
are more happy and contented...

They never complain...just slog
but never come in the picture...
or draw anyone's attention
They are silently doing their own work...at the age of 10 years
working for someone..
looking after their families
where everyone works only to survive

I always ask...why this situation is there...

Their eyes might dream of wearing proper clothes
which aren't torn
wearing a pair of slippers, so their feet doesn't get dirty
and a day where there is no tension of work
playing with gali friends
spending time for themselves
having extra money to buy something
gain confidence to tell... from what they suffer
no more fight for their existance
a deep breath for themselves
eyes wide open to share happiness...

I feel..

I feel like a small kid
when I am with you
so comfortable and relaxed
no hesitations
no after thoughts
I just feel nice
can't express in words
I can shout at you
I can laugh with you
enjoy telling every small thing to you
no matter how important that is to me
I can go and on and on and on...
only thing I need, you should be around

Puzzle

you are a puzzle
I am trying to solve
difficult it gets
The more I want to solve...

words

I can understand you, without words...
sometimes only presence is so comfortable
we were sitting next to each other
I can see an invisible wall between us
I thought you are calling me..
I looked at you, wanted to reply
then I realized and smiled
it was going in my mind...
you were sitting still
looking out of the window
in your own world..
you leaned on my shoulder
for few seconds
It meant a lot for me.
At times,we need support of each other
we don't have words to exchange
we have simple gestures
we have our own thoughts..
I think, if I get close to you
unknowingly, I will hurt you
I don't want that to happen..
may be you will never know
I care for you, in my own ways

Reality

I always wanted to be like this..... alone
why am I feeling so empty now?
Is it a fear of loosing you?
or is reality hurting me more...
Again I can see,
thousands of my reflections..
into broken pieces of my dreams
As days pass by,
I am getting a strong feeling
that I am shattered..

one for you

Today I read one of my friend's poem.I didn't know that she can write so well..she reminded me of a poem which I read long back, which I have mentioned below..I don't know the name of writer and title..but whenever I read something that I can relate to, I always remember a line written by my favourite marathi writer.....

"As you write more and more personal, it becomes more and more universal"

untitled by unknown

Sometimes your heart thinks,
whom do you really love?

You love someone,
but you like someone else
Your mind speaks,
but your heart denies…

Someone listens,
but someone else comforts…
Someone prays,
but someone else consoles…

Someone says, but someone
else’s action speaks…
Someone laughs,
but someone else understands…

Someone tells,
but someone else makes you do…
Someone is there,
but someone you want is not…

You search for someone
is someone else…
Is this beginning of love?
or is it the end?

A time comes in life when you think what love really is?
What you think is love or its something else?

Listen to your mind….
but follow your heart..

Time...

Why can’t I have same feelings....
which were there earlier in my mind..
For same place…….
For same person….
Why am I changing as per the time?
Is it something which time wants to tell me....?
move on…
don’t carry extra baggage in life..
create space for new experiences..
when you empty that place,
other things get a chance to occupy that space…
Time never comes back….
Even if u want it to be back …
or even if u want to be in present..
It just passes by…
Every second is giving something new to you…
Even the place is not the same …where you are standing now
or even the person is not the same …..who is really close to you
you can’t say ….you know a person inside out
Those are the people who are most unpredictable at times..

Jaisalmer trip...

I wanted to write about the experience of Jaisalmer trip since when I came back..but it was just not happening...These were written in my personal diary but not on blogg...

It was an amazing trip..
I enjoyed running around in sand dunes...
It was such a nice feeling to touch sand.... fine sand....smooth feeling..how it flows from your hand..
You just can't hold a single particle...everything flows...with a quiet speed..
I was sitting in a sand dune ..looking at a wavy pattern formed by them.
It reminds me, river with subtle movement of water ....
Ripple....which grows outwards...shows only growth.
sunset..............
I thought I just want to roam around and see every possible thing and feel it!
I can still feel cold touch of sand in the night........
and sand slipping under my feet...
struggle to go ahead in sand...
All efforts.....worth it!!!!
Even 5 km camel ride ...which broke my all bones and joints....
not the easy one....( he he he at least for me)

It was a great experience...I just loved it...
feeling of my negligible mass in front of nature.
I get the same feeling when I look at the sea....look at the sky...I feel we all are so tiny in front all these natural things, as if we almost doesn't exist..and still we fight for everything...bother for people's opinion....think a lot before taking each decision...sandwiched between never ending fight of our own heart and mind.....why??????

In nature, everything is so well thought of and has a meaning to it...we neglect it...because we are so involved in our own things...I still feel, one should repeat all those things which they did in their childhood.. catching dragonflies, making paper boats, eating soil, getting wet in the rain..crazy dreams etc which keeps you alive..small things doesn't excite us anymore..

I simply like Jaisalmer as a small town and its architecture ...amazing view from fort...It appears as a game of a leggo blocks of different heights...a composition made by a kid..
Haweli was too good and our photo shoot was great fun...we clicked lots of photographs...I think we were obsessed with ourselves...all Hi five snaps ...

I started smiling in photos, when I came to LAD ...I was so conscious about clicking photographs..today I don't feel anything...no consciousness... I used to hate clicking myself..
All credit goes to my dear classmates.....who keep clicking snaps!!!
I have gain confidence from them....that even I can look beautiful( he he he..which I always dream of...) and I started appreciating myself ..I always appreciate people but never thought about myself..but now I think about it..
This trip triggered many thoughts in my mind.............I think ..I am serious again!

Foot prints

This is something which I found last night going through my notebook which I used in my twelth standard..The habit of writing something on the last pages of the notebook.
If you want to see a notebook with its contents..... the right way is to start from last pages....you will find many scribbled thoughts...random statements...doodles..various moods reflecting through handwriting...
I like to keep last pages of all my notebooks for this reason and going through them after sometime....
This poem I read it long time back and still its there in my mind.

One night I dreamed a dream
I was walking along the beach with my Lord
Across the drak sky flashed scene from my life

For each scene, I noticed two sets
of foot prints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord

when last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
There was only one set of foot prints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord
about the dilemma

" Lord, you told me when I decided to follow you,
you would walk and talk with me all the way
But I am aware that during the most troublesome times of my life
there is only one set of foot prints
I just don't understand why,when I needed you the most,
You leave me."

He whispered,"My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never ever,during your trials and testings
When you saw only one set of foot prints
it was then that I carried you."

Margaret Powers

you....

Serendipity means fortunate discoveries by accidents..I simply love this word.

So finally I am blogging today on the occasion of Valentine's Day..
I am feeling all excited about it and still wondering ..how long am I going to continue this ...
Anyways,I have written few lines during internship in Delhi.. and I would like to mention those here now.

I have memories of you and you only
In my heart…….
Wherever I go
They come with me
They remind me….
Happiness lies in sharing those moments ……with you only
Holding those memories in my hand
I slept whole night …
Thinking of you in my dreams…
And smiled whole night in my sleep.....
I think you were there with me after you left..
You are still here with me right now….
Why am I so happy?
Unable to figure out.....
May be its you.........just you..
Whose making a difference to my living.....