Time...

Why can’t I have same feelings....
which were there earlier in my mind..
For same place…….
For same person….
Why am I changing as per the time?
Is it something which time wants to tell me....?
move on…
don’t carry extra baggage in life..
create space for new experiences..
when you empty that place,
other things get a chance to occupy that space…
Time never comes back….
Even if u want it to be back …
or even if u want to be in present..
It just passes by…
Every second is giving something new to you…
Even the place is not the same …where you are standing now
or even the person is not the same …..who is really close to you
you can’t say ….you know a person inside out
Those are the people who are most unpredictable at times..

Jaisalmer trip...

I wanted to write about the experience of Jaisalmer trip since when I came back..but it was just not happening...These were written in my personal diary but not on blogg...

It was an amazing trip..
I enjoyed running around in sand dunes...
It was such a nice feeling to touch sand.... fine sand....smooth feeling..how it flows from your hand..
You just can't hold a single particle...everything flows...with a quiet speed..
I was sitting in a sand dune ..looking at a wavy pattern formed by them.
It reminds me, river with subtle movement of water ....
Ripple....which grows outwards...shows only growth.
sunset..............
I thought I just want to roam around and see every possible thing and feel it!
I can still feel cold touch of sand in the night........
and sand slipping under my feet...
struggle to go ahead in sand...
All efforts.....worth it!!!!
Even 5 km camel ride ...which broke my all bones and joints....
not the easy one....( he he he at least for me)

It was a great experience...I just loved it...
feeling of my negligible mass in front of nature.
I get the same feeling when I look at the sea....look at the sky...I feel we all are so tiny in front all these natural things, as if we almost doesn't exist..and still we fight for everything...bother for people's opinion....think a lot before taking each decision...sandwiched between never ending fight of our own heart and mind.....why??????

In nature, everything is so well thought of and has a meaning to it...we neglect it...because we are so involved in our own things...I still feel, one should repeat all those things which they did in their childhood.. catching dragonflies, making paper boats, eating soil, getting wet in the rain..crazy dreams etc which keeps you alive..small things doesn't excite us anymore..

I simply like Jaisalmer as a small town and its architecture ...amazing view from fort...It appears as a game of a leggo blocks of different heights...a composition made by a kid..
Haweli was too good and our photo shoot was great fun...we clicked lots of photographs...I think we were obsessed with ourselves...all Hi five snaps ...

I started smiling in photos, when I came to LAD ...I was so conscious about clicking photographs..today I don't feel anything...no consciousness... I used to hate clicking myself..
All credit goes to my dear classmates.....who keep clicking snaps!!!
I have gain confidence from them....that even I can look beautiful( he he he..which I always dream of...) and I started appreciating myself ..I always appreciate people but never thought about myself..but now I think about it..
This trip triggered many thoughts in my mind.............I think ..I am serious again!

Foot prints

This is something which I found last night going through my notebook which I used in my twelth standard..The habit of writing something on the last pages of the notebook.
If you want to see a notebook with its contents..... the right way is to start from last pages....you will find many scribbled thoughts...random statements...doodles..various moods reflecting through handwriting...
I like to keep last pages of all my notebooks for this reason and going through them after sometime....
This poem I read it long time back and still its there in my mind.

One night I dreamed a dream
I was walking along the beach with my Lord
Across the drak sky flashed scene from my life

For each scene, I noticed two sets
of foot prints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord

when last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
There was only one set of foot prints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord
about the dilemma

" Lord, you told me when I decided to follow you,
you would walk and talk with me all the way
But I am aware that during the most troublesome times of my life
there is only one set of foot prints
I just don't understand why,when I needed you the most,
You leave me."

He whispered,"My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never ever,during your trials and testings
When you saw only one set of foot prints
it was then that I carried you."

Margaret Powers

you....

Serendipity means fortunate discoveries by accidents..I simply love this word.

So finally I am blogging today on the occasion of Valentine's Day..
I am feeling all excited about it and still wondering ..how long am I going to continue this ...
Anyways,I have written few lines during internship in Delhi.. and I would like to mention those here now.

I have memories of you and you only
In my heart…….
Wherever I go
They come with me
They remind me….
Happiness lies in sharing those moments ……with you only
Holding those memories in my hand
I slept whole night …
Thinking of you in my dreams…
And smiled whole night in my sleep.....
I think you were there with me after you left..
You are still here with me right now….
Why am I so happy?
Unable to figure out.....
May be its you.........just you..
Whose making a difference to my living.....