Best decision ever made!!

I was watching grand finale of the programme called " sa re ga ma pa little champs " on zee tv marathi... and the winner is " Kartiki Gaikwad" a girl from Alandi, Maharashtra. I am following this programme on every monday and tuesday since last five months. I so so wanted her to win but I was thinking while watching the programme that public voting thing will be something else and not at all predictable. I heard the result and said " this is the best decision ever made by judges and public". yooohooooo :) Fighter always wins..

she was out of the programme in between due to lack votes but came back with wild entry and the come back was super duper hit. Later the graph of her performance went higher and higher. I loved her personally due to her different voice, choice of songs and she used to sing the songs which are composed by her father who is also a singer in Alandi. You need courage and faith to do that when the others were singing the most popular compositions.

Undoubtedly all the five candidates are wonderful and varied from each other but there is something about Kartiki. At one point,I wanted that there shoudn't be any winner choosen because they are so good and there can not be any comparision amongst them.

But then somebody has to win in a competition, so I was thinking ..whose that one??

It has to be very young and cute Kartiki who is bold, enthusiatic, active, fighter, expressive and experimental. I found this programme is the most genuine amongst all the other programmes I have seen. Judges were amazing in giving the right feed back in right words considering the age group of candiadates.

Dot....

I read this today:-

Even a small dot can stop a big sentence, but... few more dots can give a continuity,

amazing but true, every ending can be a new begining!

Waiting back ...

Right now I am very happy and contented !! its an after effect of things happening to me in last 15 days. I am experinecing extreme emotions in these days. Suddenly I am very happy and suddenly very nervous. I think of something and feel charged up to change life and suddenly I need energy to stand. New year has definately brought fantastic news in my life about my loved ones. I feel people are doing so many things.

What am I doing sitting at home?? watching t.v. , reading books, travelling to different places neraby, giving interviews..meeting really very few friends who remaining in the city, rest has travelled abroad and settled there with respective familes and living QUALITY LIFE.. and what am I doing here??

What's the defination of QUALITY LIFE in my terms..

Why I have prefered to stay here when rest of the world is running somewhere else..

Does everyone actually know why they are running behind something?

Are they so sure what they want from life??Where is the peace of mind gone ?? Is everyone actually Happy in what they are doing or with whom they are staying or with what is happening around the city or in the world?

I feel many of them in the crowd have become numb and self centered. They don't know things beyond their life. I see in buses senior citizens standing, wherever it is written seats alloted to them ..young ones are sitting and nobody says anything. In train people keep pushing, blaming, fighting all the time. nobody has a second to be patient and to help each other to make this small journey peaceful and calm. I get up when I see an old woman standing next to me to offere her my place and also have seen other women who are young and strong fighting for that seat. I wonder why everyone has become so selfish can't they realise what is needed by the situation??

I don't run now a days to catch a train when I know I can catch the other train after 5-10 mins more. I walk with my own pace like a slow and steady tortoise, without bothering about rest of the crowd wherever its running. I reach on time and do things what makes me happy deep inside my heart. One year before I was in the similar phase when I used to say while doing all the things " Everything will fall in place because I am playing my part very well!! " I wish everyone realises their "PART" which has to be played WELL from their end, so that things can be more comfortable for everyone around.

I want to be a star...

What is life ??
I keep asking this question to myself, and when I don't get the answer ..
I look the criss cross lines which are there on my palm,
People say those lines decide what is going to happen in LIFE
Is it really like that??
What happens when someone wants to really CHANGE something very strongly in life
Do these lines change for some one's wish?
or they stay there as it is
so that the person can look at them and console himself
" This is life and I have to accept it .."
But I never wanted to ACCEPT these thoughts , I wanted to fight ..

I think you can change your destiny
I always faught for everything in life and never got a single thing on a platter
I never complained though, but now I feel
I want everything THE WAY I WANT ....
Isn't life checked my patience enough !!
27 years of life is a graph which is never constant
I'm still struggling looking at the lines, someday they will CHANGE for me
I want to relate those experiences of LIFE to these lines
How do I do it??
I laugh on my thoughts, but I DON'T CARE !!
I still believe I have courage and strength in my little hands to fight and be there up in the sky with stars !!

When I was a kid I read story of Dhruva .. who was so determined that god gave him position of a star in the universe i.e. the pole star Dhruva, which you will find constantly in North direction shining brightly than the other stars.....whenever I was low in my life I made a wish that I want to be that star ..check my patience but place me there so that nobody can move me from that place...I think the time has come that I want to make that wish again.

She …

I listened to you
And I thought…
I really know how you feel
At this moment …


When nobody is with you,
You are all alone,
Going through finer detail,
Trying to connect everything happened …
And you realize,
Something is there in between both of you,
Which we can't deny
But the fact is so conflicting
We still aren't together!!


Just because she don't want to listen to her heart
And allow her self to be free to love someone
It's something very natural and beautiful
To be in this feeling
I feel so right when I think about her!!


You don't want to spend whole life without her
And you expected this will happen
One more time… NO
You think..
I have heard NO every time in life
But don't know how to stop this thing I have started
It's not in my hand I have controlled enough
Now I am setting myself free
And going to do what I really want
So that I can be with you all my life
Though you had said NO...


I thought, I am living those moments again with you
Walking back in my memory lane
you reminded me of my earlier days
when I did the same thing
what she is doing now…
I didn't allow myself to be free and express
What I really want ...
Due to my few principals and guilt
I will not call that a mistake
But I lost something precious for sure …


I was as crazy as you are
As madly in love as you are
As tender as you are, when you talk about her
As restless as you are right now
When she isn't around

I wrote every conversation in my diary
And kept pages of all scribbled thoughts
Did all stupid intuitive things
From FLEAMES to read daily fortune of both

I found you everywhere in some form
No matter, whether I am working or walking back home
Your words, your laughter, your thoughts
Captured my mind to the last fraction of a second
I understood every single clue which time has shown
Those made me think
I should still wait for you
I so knew that I want to be with you !!


I couldn't imagine that
I have reached so far
Just for you …
A simple person like me
Who wanted to live life the way it's coming…
You made me so strong to follow my heart
So I am going to do everything
Just to be with you !!

single line !

One line mail can be soothening also... I felt that today!!

What we want??

Sometimes in life we become so sure of what we want ...I think that phase comes in everyone's life where everything appears crystal clear ....I have realised that rescently. As a person I think a bit too much but and then do things... but at that time also things appear like a blurr image to me. for a change ,the picture I have in front of my eyes is so beautiful and clear ...how does this happened to me.. I am wondering ..
This gives you immence confidnece, happiness and an urge to live life... I have fallen in love with life again and again whenever I have seen or felt a THING which makes you speechless ....In my life these moments have come many times where I was amazed of whats happening...
and I always thanked god for showing ME those things.

Last few months I have met so many new people, visited many different places , spoke on many different topics while at work or while travelling , read articles, clicked photographs ... life has so much to offer it to us ...it depends upon how you look at the things and how open you are to accpet it...It keeps offering to you in its own manner . It feels I have done a whole long journey within me. I have changed so much and done all new things which I haven't done earlier ...it may be as simple as seeing a snow fall,
seeing daylight in north pole till 11:00 in the night ..where you surprised where is the darkeness of night??
huge sky span...
all colours appear ALIVE to me ..
understood meaning of LIVING ON YOUR OWN ....
wide difference between the place you belong to and where you come for work..
basic food.. defination of seasons... festivals..games .. education..culture .. behaviour .. social norms...
taking care of something..
longing for people you love...
different languages but conveying same feelings ...
learned to ineteract with hand gestures ,drawing and numbers where nobody understand your language ...and still being succesful in it ..finally it works ..
I dont know how ..may be because word is not the only medium of communication..and at the end we are human beings we feel the same way for all the things ..it doesn't matter which place you belong too...